When I was a kid, I’m so girly; from the way I dress, up to my favorites. My mom always treat me like a baby, she always buy me cute stuffs and everything she sure I will love. But that was before.
When I was in Grade 6, my brother was always playing online games (special force, crossfire, point blank and many more), sometimes I watch him. At first, I’m so confused how he play that, so, he explain to me how to play online games, and it caught my attention. There’s no days that I didn’t watch my brother played online games (specially pointblank), to the point that I almost knew all the different types of guns in his game. Everything that boys likes, I tried to figure out, like watching flip top battles, listening to rap songs, and I even try playing my brother’s game. But that doesn’t affect my physical appearance. Not until I went to High School.
As I went to High school, I feel like everything changed. I had a classmate, a girl classmate, to be specific, that is so opposite of mine. She’s so quiet and always wearing her earphones. I didn’t approach her because I don’t know how to. So, the first year we had, we’re not close and I think never will be close. I don’t know how, when and where we became close.We get to know each other and she’s so cool. I love her styles so I copy how she dresses; always wearing black and earphone’s always on. I felt like I was cool too. we became best friends and when we’re in grade 9, she introduce her new favorite band and as time goes by, I liked it too. Because of that band (5sos), We started to make a band too, but we don’t know how to play instruments. So, she motivates me to study to play guitar,learn and practice. I’d study many songs, until I can finally do it. And then I realize, I changed a lot. Because of her, I change how I should be dressed, & what should I dress. She take me out of my comfort zone and take me to the adventurous journey of my life. But, on the other side of my happiness was hiding her sadness. She was broken because of a guy she really love. I was the only one who’s always giving advice to her. I don’t know. I love her and I don’t want to see my best friend crying, because it hurts. So, I always try to make her happy but even though she’s smiling and laughing, she’s not happy inside. But now, she’s trying to move forward and letting past, be just a beautiful yesterday & that’s why I admire her so much. Because even though she’s really hurt, she still managed to smile. She’s fooling us that she’s happy to the point where even she, herself, fools.
5 years and still counting, Time flew fast… It’s been 5 years and we’ve been closer and closer, thank you for changing me. Thank you for encouraging me to do things that I thought I couldn’t do. Don’t cry again,you’ve been a tough and strong lady, Love yourself until someone came and love you more than you love yourself. Always remember that, even though I’m not the best in your friends, I’m always here and will never leave in times you’re really down. Your smiles, laughs and corny jokes will always be loved. You’re my cuddle buddy and the only one Drummer in my life, REBECCA A. MANDAPAT (H. E. 1 -Mapagkalinga)